Trust. Delight. Commit. Rest. (Febraury News Letter)

  " Trust in the LORD and do good ; Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness.  Delight yourself in the LORD ; And He will give you the desires of your heart.  Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him, and He will do it.  He will bring forth your righteousness as the light And your judgment as the noonday.  Rest in the LORD and wait patiently for Him; Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way, Because of the man who carries out wicked schemes. "

 Psalms 37:3-7

 

This month, God has really been using these verses as encouragement but also as daily reminders to keep my eyes focus on him. To TRUST him completely (especially when I feel as though I am never going to get to Costa Rica), to DELIGHT myself in the Lord (in the little things such as seeing a shooting star or my favorite ice cream), to COMMIT my way to the Lord ( to daily commit Costa Rica to God and daily giving him control over timing and support raising), to REST in God. Not just sleep or relax by watching a good movie, but to really spend time in prayer, mediated in a few verses and listen.  I wished I could tell you that I am a pro at all of these things, but I am far from it and probably will never be a pro. But that is ok with me, because that means that I continue to depend on God more and more and depend on me less and less. And that is what I want, less of me and MORE of God!   

 
Costa Rica News:::

What's New??

I am 60% fully funded for monthly support!!! So with that, I need 40% more to be at 100% funded for monthly support BUT only 25% more to buy my one way ticket!!! 

For those who like numbers, I need $845.81 to be at 100% for monthly support. 

It breaks done like this:

9 people giving $100.00 a month

17 people giving $50.00 a month

35 people giving $25.00 a month. 

To be able to buy my ticket and raise the reminder 15% before I leave, I need $530.21. 

It breaks down like this:

5 people giving $100.00 a month

10 people giving $50.00 a month

20 people giving $25.00 a month. 

I ask that you prayer about being one of the people on this list. 

Next Steps::

Well this month I am going to work extra hard to reach the remaining amounts. I will continue to contact people and meet with varies life groups. If you would like to have coffee with me to talk more about Costa Rica, please email me rose.e.torres@gmail.com. I would LOVE to let you know how and why God is calling me there! 

Prayer Request:: 
1. Please be praying for my family and I. I cant go into details, but please be praying for strength and discernment. 
2. That God will continue to have his hand on the support raising for Costa Rica. 
3. That all the Visa papers will come back on time and that there will be no problems. 
  
NEWSLETTER! 
If you have not gotten a prayer card or newsletter please let me know. I am sending out one last paper news letter before I go completely via email. With that if you would like to be added to my email list, you can do it here!   

Blessings! 
Rose 

Hosanna in the Hightest

It is 2013 and I am still in Fresno. I would be lying if I said that I am not a little discourage or that I was hoping to be in Costa Rica by now, but I am and I was.

So there are few ways that I can handle this discouragement.
1. I can be angry at God
2. I can choose to keep asking God the "What am I doing wrong?" question.
3. I could just give up and throw in the towel on this journey.
4. I could choose to play the victim and "woos-is-me" card.

But you see I know the God that I serve and instead I choose to fight these lies with His word. 
1.  James 1:19-20:: "This you know, my beloved brethren. But everyone must be quick to hear, slow to speak and slow to anger; for the anger of man does not achieve the righteousness of God." 
2. Jeremiah 29:11-12::  "For I know the plans that I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope. 'Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you."
3. Romans 10:13-15:: "for "WHOEVER WILL CALL ON THE NAME OF THE LORD WILL BE SAVED." 14 How then will they call on Him in whom they have not believed ? How will they believe in Him whom they have not heard ? And how will they hear without a preacher ? 15 How will they preach unless they are sent ? Just as it is written, "HOW BEAUTIFUL ARE THE FEET OF THOSE WHO BRING GOOD NEWS OF GOOD THINGS !"
4. Hebrews 6:10:: "For God is not unjust so as to forget your work and the love which you have shown toward His name, in having ministered and in still ministering to the saints."

So where am at with my funding? 
For my monthly support, I am currently need $900.81 to be fully funded. That means I have 43% left to raise. Which is really not that much and I have heard that once you past the half way mark, it feels like it just comes in so quickly. That is what I hear and that is what I am praying for. 
For my one time amount, I am currently need 4,854.95 to reach my goal. That means I have 39% left to raise.  
With that, if you feel that God is calling you to be apart of my financial team, you can send a check to: Students International, PO Box 2733, Visalia, CA 93279-2733 account:: Rose Torres. You can donate online here or you can check out the NEW and IMPROVE website for more information.

So what is next? 
I am currently working on the process for my religious visa. So that means that I am filling out paper work and getting by background cleared. I will still be meeting with different life groups from The Well and letting them know how they can be about of the ministry that God has called me too. Once I have reached about 85% I will be able to buy my plane ticket and be commissioned off :) 

Top 3 prayer request:  

• That I will continue to remember God's promises.
• That God will continue to provide the resources for me to move to Costa Rica
• That I will continue to be a good steward of my time here in Fresno.  

I know that I am exactly where God wants me to be at. And there are days where I am supper blessed to be in Fresno with friends and family and there are days where my heart longs to be in Costa Rica working with the girls groups and getting ready for when teams come. I know I will be there soon so until then, I will continue to praise Hosanna in the highest! 

Rose

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Christmas Cheer and TAMALES!

 

It is that time of year again! 

Christmas Cheer and TAMALES! 

Since this is the time of year that my family and I make tamales, we decided to make it a fundraiser for Costa Rica! 

I will be making and selling pork Tamales for $15.00 a dozen. I will ONLY be selling 50 dozen, so the orders will be taken on a first come basis. 

They will be available for pick up or delivery on Friday Dec 21 or Saturday Dec 22. You will pay at the time of delivery with cash or check only. 

They will be delivered frozen with instructions on how to reheat them.

Here is the link to order online :) You can also email or send me a facebook message. 

 If you have any questions, please let me know :) 

Merry Christmas and Happy Tamale season!

Rose

In AWE of God

"Let all the earth hear the Lord; Let all the inhabitants of the world stand in awe of Him" Psalm 33:8

There are times in life were I have the AWE moments of God. It could be because of a conversation with someone, a song, sitting on the beach or a scripture that touched the core of me. These are moments that I treasure. These are moments that I am amazed just how BIG of a God I serve and how small I am.

One of the weekends when I was in Colorado, a group of us went to Pikes Peak. That day is a day that I will never forget. It is one of my top 5 best days ever!  Not because of the people that I went with (they are amazing by the way!) or that the drive was amazing, it was because God showed me another side of him that touched my core.

I had just finished my second week of training at MTI which was a hard week for me. God had did some major work on my heart that week. Broke down walls that I had up, showed me that it is ok to grieve over the pain and hurt from this summer's trails with loved ones and open my eyes to how important the Sabbath is. On top of all that, I had pulled my lower back muscle and had been in pain the whole week and it wasn't getting better. I was physically, spiritually and emotionally tired and was looking forward to the weekend.

We had decided to go to Pikes Peak on a Sunday after church. The peak was cold, windy and just gorgeous. It took my breath away being up 14,000 ft and seeing for miles in the distance. It was also scary being that high, knowing that if you got to close to the cliff and took a wrong step, you would fall off the peak.

That whole day I kept quoting Phil 4:13, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." because I was in so much back pain. It hurt to walk, sit and stand. But even then, God still showed me his beauty. As I stood there looking out I was reminded of Genesis 1:9-12, "Then God said, 'Let the waters below the heavens be gathered into one place, and let the dry land appear; and it was so. God called the dry land earth, and the gathering of the waters He called seas; and God saw that it was good. Then God said, 'let the earth sprout vegetation: plants yielding seed and fruit trees on the earth bearing fruit with seed in them, after their kind; and God saw that it was good." As I stood looking  down at the birds and seeing the beauty of the rookies, I was just in AWE. In AWE of a creator that created this place that was good. In AWE of the One who has the power to move mountains, give comfort and give rest. In AWE of the One who gave His Son to die for a simple person like me.

I saw God's beauty in the colors of the trees below me and in the lake I could see in the distance. I saw His strength in the mountains around me. I saw His cleansing in the grey clouds that were above us and in the distance filled with rain. Everywhere I looked, I saw God. And in that moment I realized I saw Him, but what about those around me, did they see God and all His glory? Did they stand here and have their AWE moments of God? Did they stand here and realized that God made this for them too?


I left Pikes Peak with mix emotions because I saw God's beauty but others didnt and others wont and that sadden my heart. I realized on the way back to MTI, that going to Costa Rica wasnt just about meeting new people, changing lives and helping others. It is about much more then that. It is about showing them how much the God I serve loves them. It is about giving them AWE moments to experience God and His fullness. I want them to experience God's love the way that I do, with all its joy, hope and beauty that He brings to everyone who believes in him. This is why God wants me to go to Costa Rica, to show the high school girls there that they are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:13-14) by the Creator. That no matter what society, family, boyfriends think of them, God loves each and everyone of them for He made them! That is my prayer, that God will use me there to show this young beautiful ladies all these things.

As I write this blog my heart breaks for those who dont know God. To live a life with no hope, no joy, no true love is sad. I want everyone to see and experience God the way that I did on that mountain. To experience his fullness and see his beauty, but I know that there are some that will never know Him and His love and I mourn for them. I pray that God will break our hearts, will continue to break my heart for those who do not know Him. That we as a body of believers will pray for them, that God will touch their lives. I pray that we wont forgot the cross and what Jesus died for.

I saw a lot of things that day. I saw God's strength, love and beauty. I saw a group of believers deepening friendships, united with the simple call to go and make disciples of all nations (Matt 28:19). I saw the birds fly below me because we were so high up. But what sticks out in my mind is that I had an experience of AWE that day of the God who created the heavens and the earth.

MTI Week 2 and 3

Week 2 and 3 went so fast. There are so many things that I have learned and would love to share, but that would take about a week to write. So I wont bore you with the information but instead I will give you the highlights of those week and my last weekend there :)

Week 2 started off with the last session on conflict. I learn that most teams or people depart the mission field premature due to conflict with team member or the organization they are with. We also talked about stress and it was emphasis that the average missionary daily experiences 2 - 5 times as much stress as the average inner city cop. We had a hostage simulation that same week and debrief on how we handle the stress of it, the physical and emotional side of it too. Towards the end of the week we talked about transitions and the different stages that goes along with it. For me the best part was learning about the Sabbath. This section was on the following day of the simulation, so it was nice to sit and rest. The first part of the morning we went in our growth group and talked about why keeping sabbath was hard for us. From there we were on our own to read scripture and answer questions in our binder. After lunch there was more scripture to read on our own but there was time to play with God. That was the thing that really got to me, that God wanted to play with us as well as sit with us. For some of the people that was a hard concept but for others it was easy. For me, I realize that I play with God with I am outside enjoying God's creation and painting. For others in the training it was simply coloring, walking, taking a nap or even going to Target. I also realize just how important the Sabbath is. It is not to just a "day off" from life but it is to stop and rest in God. To stop and listen and even lay down your burdens to God. This is something that I want to do more of in my life and something that I have realized that I need to here in Fresno and in Costa Rica. 

Since it was our last weekend in Colorado, we decided to rent a car and go to Denver and Pikes Peak.  Denver is a cool place. We went to 16th Street mall and had sushi there. But Pikes Peak was simply amazing. It was so breath taking and gorgeous. I will blog about that on another day. 

 

(Denver) 

(Pikes Peak)

Week 3 was the most emotional week for me. There had been some stuff with my family that had happen over the summer that I had needed to process and deal with that I had been putting off. But here I was in Colorado and in a since I was forced to deal with it. And I did and it was hard. We had a session that I call Cry-feast (it was called Grief and Loss) and it was a time for us to really process what we are leaving behind here in the states. Family, kids, grand kids, boyfriends, girlfriends, etc. It was also a time for us to deal with things that we didnt want to or couldnt. For me it was a time to deal with the hurt and pain from this summer and lay it down at the foot of the cross. It was a time to truly start the healing process. After that session, I felt free and so much peace and comfort. 
The rest of the week we talked about MK and TCK (ministry kids, third culture kids), Goodbye's and Hello's and then we prayed over everyone. 

Now I have been home for about a week and today was the first day that it hit me that I am back in Fresno. Today was my Yuck Duck day. I miss my new friends, the community, and the understanding of missions we all had. I miss the encouragement and support from each other. I miss the Rockies and the cool weather. I know that I am back in Fresno for a reason and I am thankful for the time I had at MTI. This was an experience that I will always remember. I have already been looking back at my binder and notes trying to not forget everything that I have learned. 

So what is next???
Well I am still raising support for Costa Rica. This month I will be meeting with Life groups and anyone who wants to hear about Costa Rica and what I will be doing there. I will be doing some fundraisers through The Well for my cost to move there but I still need people to support me on a monthly basis.
 Here is the link to donate online and any little thing helps and it is considered a tax donation. Also if you would like to receive newsletters or want to meet up for coffee, please email me at (rose.e.torres@gmail.com). Also if you want to know more about what Yuck duck means and MTI, email me and I would love to sit and tell you more about it :) 

Blessings! 
R

Week 1 at MTI

 

(MTI)

Week 1 at MTI was really good. Some of the things that I have learned were basic things that I have known, but some of the stuff that I have learned have touch the core of my heart. I have gotten to know some amazing people who have felt the call to go overseas. I have gotten to laugh a lot, have deep conversations and be encouraged all with in a week.

God has shown me some areas in my life that I need to work on before I go to Costa Rica and he has also shown me his grace and beauty. I have come to fully understand the importance of being here at MTI and how important it is for people to go to a training center before going out in to the field. Training is not to just getting tools for how to handle conflict, it is more personal. It is about checking your heart, be willing to admit that you need to change some stuff and then doing it. It is about looking at the core of who God has made you and realizing that you are nothing without him. It is about change and being willing to get out of you comfort zone and being willing to surrender them to God.

With long days of talking about hard and tough issues, it is nice to have the weekends to rest and relax. The first weekend  here, a group of us went to Garden of the Gods. It is this beautiful place where there are some amazing rock formation that no body knows how it got there. A natural wonder. We were able to walk around and hike a bit around there. We were also able to see Pikes Peak. On Sunday, a group of us went to Church together and then we got to go and play outdoor laser tag.Yup you read it right! We got a really good deal and got to play for a little over 2 hours. There was about 20 of us and it was such a great team bonding experience.

 (Garden of the Gods)

 (My roommate Tiana and I)

 (Cathedral Spires) 

 (Pikes Peak)

 (Pico the Parrot and Me at Outdoor Laser Tag)

I am currently at my last week here, and am behind on my blogging. But I am excited for to tell you about week 2 and last weekend :) 

Financial Support: 
 Again, If you want to help me financially, here is the link to donate online. Any little thing helps and it is considered a tax donation. :)

Blessings!
R

Missions Training International (MTI)

For the next 3 weeks I get to see this.....

I am currently in Colorado Springs for training with MTI (Missions Training International). I arrived yesterday afternoon tired and ready for bed but excited for what God has in store for me here.There are currently 10 singles (2 males, 8 females), 10 families, and 11 kids that vary in ages.

Today was our first full day here. So far it has been fun to meet people who are going all over the world. Hear about their heart and passion and see how God has shaped them. For the next 3 weeks I will be in there SPLICE program. SPLICE stands for Spiritual, Personal, Lifestyle, Interpersonal, Cultural, Endurance/Enjoyment.  I will have a coach that I will meet with once a week here and I have a group of women that I will meet several times to dive into deeper and more personal conversations. We have classes from 8:45am to 4pm Monday-Friday and homework some of the nights. I have been told that we are going to be talking about issues that could and will be challenging for us, but will be good to do now so we can work on them before going out to the mission field. I have already felt God starting to stir up different emotions already and have started to process those. Overall I am excited and nervous to be here. I know that there will be some good conversations, encouraging moments and fun time, but I also know that God will use this time to prepare me for my time in Cost Rica.

Prayer Request::
1. That my heart and ears will be open to what God is teaching me here in MTI.
2. That I will be a steward of my time here. 
3. Fundraising while I am here will go well. 

Financial Support: 
 Again, If you want to help me financially, here is the link to donate online. Any little thing helps and it is considered a tax donation. Also if you would like to receive newsletters, please email me (rose.e.torres@gmail.com) and I will add you to the list :)

My evening stroll :) 

Blessings! 

Rose